It was the day she knew he had been waiting for. She didn't know how she was going to tell him but it was obvious what was going to happen.
She was carefully putting on her red nail polish. Focusing on each layer while painting her immaculate nails, she could hardly hear her phone vibrating. Picking it up half-heartedly it read 1 new message.
? - Y
She took a deep breath and making sure not to smudge her nail polish; she dialed the long forgotten number. He answered immediately on the second ring.
"Yeah?"
"Look I-"
"I get it, don't explain."
"But it's just that-"
"No seriously, it's all clear now. Don't explain."
"Listen to me!"
"I don't have to, I know what you are going to say. It's all good."
"How about I-"
"I have to go. We'll do this some other time."
She knew he wasn't stupid but was in her own world of denial where what she was doing wasn't obvious at all. What do I do now?!
She sat down on her bed. She had lied to him. She couldn't tell him the truth. He couldn't take the truth. I love him. When did it get this complicated?!
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Two days later.
Signing on to her Facebook page, the first status that catches her eye, Y is in London.
With a frown, she opens his profile. He's gone. There's nothing I can do about it anymore. She spent the rest of the day Facebook stalking him.
Looking through the pics, she yearned for the days when they were together. How he spoiled her. How he constantly texted her. How he woke up in the middle of the night and called her because he missed her. How the first thing he did in the morning when he woke up was call her. How he tried to fix her sleep. How he texted her when he was going anywhere and what he was doing or if he thought about her. How he tried so hard to make it work. How he wouldn't give her up without a fight ...
A picture of his little siblings brought her back to reality. It was his little sister and brother. His sister had the same name as her yet he never added the 'h' like she did. She made a big deal about it, after all it was her name. Although in previous pictures he spelled it without the 'h', in this picture he had added the 'h'. Picture added yesterday.
He signs in. She waits for a couple of minutes before chatting with him.
Hey, how are you?
Hi, I'm good. How are you?
Good.
He's gone.
12 comments:
Wonder if what she wanted to happen, and what she needed to happen conflicted or are on the same page.. I wonder :-)
Wonder if she's smiling cause a page was turned, or frowning cause it's just a page apart.
I wonder :-)
Forever?
what a turn of events! kanat el kora eb mal3abha then she's left without a choice ... very sad :(
i guess no matter how a story ends ... happy endings are just in cartoons and movies ... the worst part is the awkwardness in the end ... he shoulda let her speak, it might have eased the situation a little :/
MFarazi:
What she wanted to happen and what she needed to happen are obviously on different pages. Maybe both are happening, after all people are contradictory.
Anonymous:
It's a small world.
Gone Bonkers:
How is she left without a choice, it was her decision from the beginning. Yeah, he should have but he didn't want to hear it; ever thought he was hurting?
She should have spoke up, many are the times where women let things drift for too long and when they collect themselves, realize they've drifted far out of reach.
She was going to justify her actions and he didn't need to hear it; she was avoiding him because she didn't want it to end regardless of the fact that it was inevitably going to happen.
I think I know the feeling.
It's like something so precious full of bittersweet memories and she doesn't want to let go of that..
Yeah she doesn't but she has to =(
i just read all the parts of the story ! ..
and it is a confusing situation she is in ..
if i were her i wouldn't want to be in a long distant relationship either .. and if i love him so much it would also be hard to be his friend or lose him completely ..
hmm ..
She had to decide =/
7abeebi 7aram maskeen:( it wouldn't hurt if she just tried the long distance thing they really love each other:(
She tried it before and couldn't handle it.
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